In any creative endeavor there are those who have achieved what you are hoping to. Suddenly your work seems small and insignificant. It is so easy to fall into that trap. We are all guilty of it.
But their work doesn’t matter. Not in relation to our own. View it as something to be enjoyed as a consumer and reviewed as a fellow technician.
Appreciate the craft.
In that recognition our own strengths are revealed. If we know enough to recognize the value of what was done, then it is the next logical step to know that we will be able to replicate how it was done.